"We can't expect ourselves to be treated equally in all aspects in life."

This can be one conclusion i can get out from this whole work experience.

We are all unique individuals, and we all have our own lives to take on, what's different is in what we choose to do about it. Some people who are more outspoken, can make someone feel comfortable easily, and can easily befriend someone. For those who are more soft spoken, it takes more than just words to befriend someone easily. It takes them a whole lot of courage and a whole lot of thinking before they open their mouths to take initiative in talking to someone.

In case you're wondering who i'm talking about, i would tell you this, it's me i'm talking about.

I suppose those who are closer to me will realise this, that i'm not an outspoken person. However, since working, i hope i've become a little more outspoken, cos sometimes i had to take initiative to talk to someone(at my workplace, like new interns), or people will start saying that i'm so tired all the time and so sad all the time, Zzzzzzz...

But on the other hand, i am sometimes quite hesitant on being the initiater, cos i will tend to think that people will judge my actions or whatsoever, and i mind people's opinion of me too much, so much so that i am a bit too reserved for the society. This, is what i'm trying very hard to change(as i may have mentioned to some).

Not only this, i've discussed issues like popularity with some people before. Some of us have the affinity of gaining more friends and being more recognised by others while people like me, I'm only considered popular among my own circle of friends. It's not like i wanna be mega popular, but i just want to be really recognised by people. (:

Sometimes i even think that i'm such a useless person, trying to want to blend in, but i don't know how to go about doing that. Oh well, i'll just be this unique person, who will always stand out, in the weirdest way possible.

I just hope that one day, i'll finally be recognised for who i am and what i do by the public. Sigh, when will that day ever come? I'm relying on dance to get me outta this world, this reality, cos i think i'll crumble if i continue to let myself be caught up with reality shit.

Okay, toodles. (:

From now, i know Starz will always be a part of me. Nothing can change that.